Friday, April 27

Things are great! It's SPRINGTIME!!

So yeah it's spring and things have been so much better and's so nice to finally get out of the house! Now I know that being couped up all day, every day is not the funnest thing!

As for the topic of moving, it's a go...we decided that after our holidays in June we will put our house up for sale and hopefully be able to sell it. And move to the city in the fall sometime before I start school again in January. JD has been really supportive and understands that we all gotta sacrifice certain things as that is what being a family and being together is all that is a nice change. I think having a baby has made him realize a few things and maybe look to the future a bit more clearly or atleast want to plan for it a little bit more now. It's nice to not have to fight for this type of change (moving), as that is what I'm used to doing with him.

And IT'S SPRING, IT'S SPRING!!! I love it! We are outside walking everyday and I even started (slowly, very slowly) running outside in the early mornings! And so far have lost 49lbs since being pregnant...mind you that includes the baby weight and where I was at my heaviest at 9 months along! So I've come along way and Brooklyn is 8 months old soon so not bad at all! I only have 11 more pounds to be back at my pre-preggo weight (the heavier one after a 10lb gain after x-mas hehe). So ultimately about 20lbs to go to get to my pre-christmas and pre-preggo state...not bad I must say! I had a whole month set-back last month where I sorta gave up but I'm back on track and focused and just starting to become happy with myself and my body once again...and to me, that's when I find that my goals and my positive changes become easier and more attainable to achieve. When I'm content with myself. I'm happy to say that I am now, finally once again :D

And I'm also happy to say that I'm finally content with staying at home this summer with my baby girl! We are gonna have so much fun playing outside all summer and seeing her learn new things in the sun!!

Oh happy days! Springtime, with a sense of newness, and contentness with oneself and one's family! That's what it's all about, folks! Cheers!!

Thursday, April 12

Movin' on

As I mentioned earlier...overqualified and a town where there is virtually no fulltime work. That's the story of my life livin' up here.

But it really is time to move on...I'm kinda sad in a way...I grew up here and thought I could stay and make it work and raise my family here...but now I realize moving on is the best thing for me and my family. And although I feel sad, I'm also excited for the new things that await us.

And I've been noticing at the same time...that it's all very interesting after having a baby, to watch the friends that are supportive and the ones that are well...just absent. Even after continuous efforts on my part, the absentee friends remain non-responsive. Oh well...some people change and grow up and some people don't I guess. I guess that is all apart of having different priorities and the friendships naturally growing apart so that new friendships can form with other people. But needless to say, it is quite interesting to watch happen to yourself. Don't get me wrong, I'm not devastated by it. In fact, it's more relief than anything...because I know I'm worth it and don't want to waste my energy on people who don't have 'time' for me anymore. It's just a connection that I've recently made and I'm treating it more like I'm cleaning out my cluttered closet with the things, or people, that I don't need anymore. Plus, you can't please everyone and there is nothing more draining than trying to keep your friends that are just not interested anymore.

And so, with this revelation, I whole-heartedly admire the friends that, even after you having a baby, still make an honest effort to keep in touch and who don't treat you like you have a disease or are someone completely different from before the baby. I call those true friends. Those are the people I want to be friends with!

Thursday, April 5

Scattered! But slowly getting somewhere...

Ok, so if you could look into my brain, you would see alot of clutter lately. I look back on my posts and it is very cluttered. But ultimately looks like a cycle of emotions.

Anyhow, me and JD have discussed some life alterations/situations and have come to the conclusion of moving to the big city so that I can finish my masters degree and also go where the jobs and accessibility would understand if you knew how much really is (or isn't) available here in this small town which is like 1000km away (minimum) from any city or good services.

So I will likely post another post next week...but for now, we are getting ready to drive those 1000km's away this weekend to visit the 'big' city south (it's actually a small one). This is our weekend getaway and yearly spending spree on things that we need that we cannot get here (mostly everything).

Wish us luck in that we don't break down again like last weekend on another trip to a small, northern city!!! I'm keeping my fingers crossed for the whole 10 hour drive!!