So I figured I've reached something called the 'quarter-life crisis'. Well actually I think I've been going through this so-called crisis for awhile now. But I will write more about it later...I just don't want to forget so wrote it down now. I've been sick for 5 days...it hasn't been pleasant :(
UPDATE: So I'm feeling much better health-wise...however, I was sick during the warmest weekend yet! Not very fun missing out on that. And now that I'm feeling better, it has gotten cold again. WAHH! Oh well.
And regarding my so-called 'quarter-life crisis'...yeah. That's what I've figured it is and this book I'm reading about the "lies they tell you about your 20's" just comfirmed that many woman (and probably men too) go through this life changing period in there life. It's kind of like living in 'limbo' for the whole decade of your 20's; well atleast after university.
Anyhow, there is just too much to complain about to put it all in here. But I do know that I've been having anxiety and panic attacks like never-before in the past few years. About various things: job, retirement, money, living in small, isolated townsville, winter blues (are extreme), body issues, and planning the next 'phase' of life, grad school AND trying to figure out when to have more kids. How do you fit that all on one page let alone into one lifetime?! AND before the age of 30?! I guess the answer to that is, that sometimes you just don't.
Breathe. Small steps.
I gather that this all requires many, many small steps with LOTS of breathing. And I'm happy to say that today is a small step. Lately, the panic attacks have been all about the finances...those little, green dollar bills have been making me loonie! Pun-intended! hehe!
Sooo, after getting some much needed advice about RRSPs, IN LAYMAN'S TERMS, from my dear sister (before that, I thought they were the devil that you get taxed twice on) I am finally starting an RRSP for retirement. And I'm hoping that this will help curb the latest anxiety attacks I've been having and scary thoughts about retiring in a cardboard box when I'm 65.
In addition, I'd like to thank God for tax season and tax returns...because of this, we were able to pay a huge chunk onto our line of credit (which when its done being paid in a few weeks, we will never touch it again!!). And we're also gradually paying off some severe credit card debt in big chunks every 2 weeks. That along with saving money for emergency and other funds and now RRSPs and RESPs, I think we're finally getting set up properly. Well, something we can both live with that is void of panic attacks, anyways.
So it is a process. And I'm finding that everything in moderation, is the key...like, duh!
Wow, wisdom really does come with age! I just have to say: FINALLY!! And how nice! ;)
I'm thinking of moving out of town again. Although I think that this itch might have something to do with the weather...it has been cold again this week and I have not walked to work at all this week; so windy and cold, -30's...yuck.
And you know when they say there must be something in the water...well, I think this to be true about the weather affecting me like this. But there is some (well ALOT) of validity to my mind when it is like this...who wants to go through this year after year?! Not me...so moving somewhere warmer in the south is something I have my eyes on probably as a permanent fixture. But I have been thinking of a few different things this time, like keeping the house here and renting it out and buying another in the south...later on, in a few years of course, when we are more financially stable. But it's potentially a way to make a buck or two. An investment. But we'll see.
As for the weather, well, it is supposed to be warming up today and tomorrow. And hopefully on the weekend too so me and baby girl can head outside to do fun stuff while Jody is out of town. I will be less insane and she will be more tired if we get to go outside and play in the fresh air! hehe!
So where is the Spring Fairy...or better yet, that Groundhog who said the spring was coming early, back on Groundhog Day?! Maybe it was an imposter...? A beaver perhaps?! heheh! Well, ok, lets hope for some spring weather anyways, shall we?! :)
PS - I just finished reading 'The Other Boleyn Girl' book as per my book club and it was actually VERY, VERY good...such a good, lovely story! I couldn't put it down and that's the first book I had like that in a long time! ...it sure made me more interested and curious about the Monarch system and the history of it all...I googled/wikipedia'd it and am all up to date now! hehe!
Brooklyn's favourite new saying as of lately (like ALL week) has been "apple-pie"! I don't know why...I do know she loves apples but as far as we know she has never had apple pie! hehe! So today after her saying it so many times, I jokingly told her that she can bring one over to Papérè's (grandpa) and share an apple pie with him, since he loves them so much. But then Jody and I looked at eachother with the same thought: apple pie is not too hard to make!!
So chef Jody took over and proceeded to make and bake his little girl an apple pie, home-made crust and all (leave it to him to do so)! And an extra pie of which she can bring over to Papérè's house after her nap. Oh, he is going to be soo pleased especially after working on a Sunday! And this will be her first time eating apple pie!! Finally something she can connect with her favourite saying! heheh!
The final products (yum!!) (how sad...he's just fancy with his crusts! heh)
I am a full-time working mom living in the Canadian Far North. I'm a true Northerner at heart, still residing in "The Last Frontier". I have two young wonderful children, a fantastic husband and a special love affair with handmade jewelry which I'm now delving into creating.