Well it seems as though I'm biding my time here in the Great White North. I've finally realized that this little town that I grew up in is just not for me anymore. I've outgrown this place. There are just no jobs and even though I have a good job, it isn't challenging enough for me right now. I need something more. And most importantly, in my eyes, is the horrid costs or distance just to take a trip to the city to, say, visit other family members on the coast. And with our growing family this cost and inconvenience is just not worth it for me. That along with the feeling of being trapped in in -40/-50 mid-winter weather in a small town with expensive necessities, practically no luxuries and barely any community activities. That could suck the life out of any sane person. I know it's all how you make it but sometimes it's just more than that and there are just too many things to add to that list.
That being said, I realize I'm just not happy here. I thought I could be and believe me I've tried to make it work, living here with my family. But ultimately these things catch up to you. So I've told Jody that I can't wait 4-5 years (my original idea/plan so that he can finish his apprenticeship) and he understands, surprisingly, how I feel. I think he feels it too when I'm not happy. How could he not, I guess. So I told him next September (2009) that I want to leave and move to Calgary. So that I can finish grad school, once and for all, and he can finish his apprenticeship there too. And we can stay there for awhile and see how we like it. We would be that much closer to be able to visit his family as well. And honestly, it's smarter anyhow. I'm the money-maker in the family so it makes sense that we go somewhere where I can find more opportunities. And I know he enjoys being a mechanic so I fully support him finishing his apprentice and I think he realizes that he can pretty much work anywhere when he gets his journeyman ticket.
So...it's either Sept 2009 or Jan 2010 before our final move. That's the current plan anyways. I've got a plan to save up some extra money before then and pray hard that we'll be able to sell the house next summer. I'm hoping the plan will stick this time. I'm really looking forward to it now that I've said it out loud and dealt with Jody and I'm finally seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. I am in a much happier mood than I have been in awhile so this must be the right decision, right?! Well...I guess I have a year and a half to think about it anyhow, right!
Broken and Infinite
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