Turns out I was just completely and utterly and mentally exhausted last nite. Not sure why. Was super cranky and grumpy...but honestly it sounds like MANY people in this town were also like this yesterday...
And now that I think about it, I guess it probably has to do with the some 14 or so deaths that this small little community of 2500 has experienced since November. I read in the recent newspaper that if Edmonton (with a population of 1 million) had experienced the same ratio of deaths we have had, then they would have experienced over 30,000 deaths. I'm not into doing the math so am not sure if that is correct but I'm telling you, it sure feels like that kind of absolute burden.
To me, this brings some light as to why everybody in town has been so sad and even just feeling a little lost. Especially in such a small town where everyone knows everyone, many people are friends and most people are related in some manner.
To make matters especially heart-wrenching a local 16 year old girl is in a coma from a recent skidoo accident. We are all praying for her to successfully come out of her coma and hoping that she pulls through. It is a waiting game.
So basically, yesterday I was going to go to a funeral (for a family friend who passed away last week) but for various reasons I didn't get to go. This also happened earlier this month for another funeral that I wanted to attend and pay my respects to but didn't get to. And so I was a bit angry at the world...understandably so.
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